You Are Only Coming Through In Waves

I have been watching Pink Floyd's The Wall nonstop all week. I have also been oddly depressed all week. I feel like im not real and this is all some horrible dream that I cant wake up from. I need someone to talk to but im afraid to talk to people. No one ever understands they think I got it so good. I dont! I wish i could just run away somewhere no one will ever find me. I wish i could just leave this place and go somewhere im actually free and not stuck in this never ending routine. I cant though. Im afraid. All I want is to feel freedom and to feel love foronce in my life. Then again who could ever love me?